Ya... Go ahead and say it. I have been ignoring this and many of my other interweb things for months on end. Most of it is due to lack of money to fund my schooling, which I plan on going back to for photography. Once I go back I will put up all my school photos and this account will serve a function once more, YAY!
In other news, I have had LOTS of free time while looking for a job, since no one wants to hire me, so I have been getting inspired by games and drawing bits of fan art that I will up-load next time I remember.
My boyfriend took one of my most precious possessions today in hopes of getting it fixed and I hope it works. He has my scratched to sh*t copy of "Legend of Mana" for the orignal Play Station, and is going to try to remove the worst of the scratches so I can play it again. Being as it is my favorite game of all time I can't wait to see if it works. If it works I will be thrilled to death and he will have to play with me, so I may share the glory that is the Mana series with him. If not I will be happy he tried and go off to draw fan art of it. I will be happy ether way, glad to play or pleased to be inspired.


And as always: More about the artist through random questionairs!

Three ways I am still a kid:
1. I'm hyper and kinda spazzy when I'm comfortable with people
2. I still love to play pretend (aka D&D and RPGs)
3. I still want to be a princess

Three ways I am already old:
1. I have a "bad" arm that needs to be cracked at least once a day (it also hurts when its going to rain)
2. I hide my body shape when i dress most of the time
3. I would rather be silent and thought the fool then open my mouth and prove it (in front of people I am not comfortable that is)

Three things I want to do:
1. Get married
2. Have kids
3. Leave a legacy through my art

Three things you want to try in the next three months:
1. Find a way to pay for school (need to do that by the middle of the week)
2. Move the fuck out
3. Get the gadgets i want/need for art school

Three things you like about yourself:
1. My artistic ability
2. My compassion and want to help others
3. My ability to put on a mask and carry on through the pain

Three things you hate about yourself:
1. My mother-hen syndrome
2. My paranoia about people
3. The newly gained fat on my tummy

Three things that scare you:
1. Large groups of people
2. Germs and creepy-crawlys
3. Being alone (oh the irony)

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. Cell phone
2. Interewbs
3. Foods (going into my tummy)

Three things you just can't do:
1. Go to unfamiliar places with lots of people by myself
2. Tell people off
3. Get my life on the right track

Three careers you're considering:
1. Photographer
2. Animator
3. Illustrator  

Ten things you wish you could say to people right now:
1. I don't know why you bother talking to me. I know you are just doing it out of pity.
2. I don't want to take part in your sick fantasy, so just leave me the fuck alone!
3. I know you hate me for what I did, but that doesn't make me miss you, my friend, any less.
4. You have no clue how important you are to me. Even if I don't see you on a regular basis you are still the best friend I could ever ask for. I love you from the bottom of my heart, and no one could ever replace you.
5. I'm sorry I don't talk to you anymore, but you always make things complicated and my life has enough going on without you right now.
6. I don't always know what to do or if I have chosen the right path. All I can do is hope, wait it out and see it through to the end of this bumpy road.
7. I'll work hard to make you proud, I promise.
8. Boys will come and go, but girlfriends last forever.
9. I brake allot, in allot of ways, but each time it makes me stronger. You broke me, and somehow I rebuilt myself stronger, so in some messed-up, "the universe is laughing at you at this very moment" type of way, thank you.
10. I don't care if it is a crap job, just pay me and I will work, please, I need it.

Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Be there for me when I brake-down in front of you (and don't tell anyone when I do).
2. Actually look at my art, don't just scan through it.
3. An array of authentic traditional foods.
4. Trust me.
5. Sing to/with me.
6. An array of Americanized foods.
7. Love me for who I am, with all my faults and quirks, my depression and ADHD, my phobias and paranoia. Just love me and show it.
8. Respect me and treat me well.

Five things that cross your mind a lot:
1. Where did my ____ go?
2. Why are people yelling again?
3. Why can't I sleep?
4. Cell phone!
5. What am I going to do for money?

Four things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Put on PJs.
2. Rearrange the pillows 3ish times.
3. Snuggle into the blankets.
4. Check my cell phone.

Three songs that mean something to you:
1. Picture Perfect by Michael W. Smith
2. Don't want to miss a thing by Aerosmith
3. This is the night by Clay Aiken

Two confessions:
1. I got back together with a guy for the wrong reason, because I couldn't stand to see him hurt so much, not because I wanted to and I sometimes resent it.
2. I have gained 25 lbs since getting off my meds, and don't like it...

One thing you're thinking about right now:
1."How the hell am I going to pay for this traffic ticket?"